Monday, November 30, 2009
True blue.
You know how you just need that few people to keep you going?How just those few selected ones are the ones that really worth holding on for the longest time ?
And you know how you feel loved, apperciated and cherished just being with these few people ?
Yeap.
I'm feeling that alright.
This bugs me all the time but I cant stop it from making me feel contented just by wrapping my life with just these few people ; you know who you are.
I dont want some ''other'' people to think they're neglected by me or simply forgotten by me when they are actually not, really. It's just that, I feel happier with those fewer people that I constantly talk and meet up with.
This has got nothing to do with the fact that I now have my own beau. No , not that.
This is bout holding on dearly to what or rather, who my friends really are. I can simply count with my two bare hands who are the ones truely , specially matters.
I told Hyun about it and she herself feels it. Someone said I can tell Hyun just bout everything and anything and I couldnt agree more. 'Cause why ? Friends, like her, are not judgemental. While others, are extremely judgemental even though they're your own friends.
I thought friends are suppose to be supportive of each other.
To not simply judge so quickly when they tell you what they feel or what they face or what they want in life.
I thought friends are suppose to be encouraging to each other.
Instead of pulling each other down and bitch bout one another behind each other's backs.
I told Kat bout it as well and she's far from being judgemental bout it but instead she understands.
And I'm really glad I've found these friends along the way. These are friends that I can really express out just bout everything in my mind while the rest of the friends, well, they are just out for fun and excitment. They're not the ones I can really tell what's in my mind.
These friends are the ones I can in turn , repay their kindness just by listening to their thoughts and concerns without being judgemental. These are the ones that I can really look up to in both sad and happy times alike.
I guess, I'm starting to be selective with whom I share my deepest thoughts with. And starting to be selective with whom I call my true blue friends.
The bond that I've with those selected fews are really special. I'll go an extra mile just to be able to sit with them over coffee and just ... chat just bout almost everything.
So you see, it's not bout me forgetting friends or putting my beau or family first and forget totally bout them. No! It's bout making a wise decision with whom I wanna spend my time with.
Would you rather spend your time with friends who are not worth it or with friends who are really worth your time ?
Would you rather spend time with someone judgemental or with someone who just takes your thoughts for who you are and than judge accordingly? Instead of just being fucking downright judgemental.
Whenever I come online, these are the few people that excites me and keep our chat running all around the clock if either one of us is not busy.
Whenever I'm stoning in the MRT, these are the people that I text and express how much I miss them.
I dont need friends who waits for me to make the first move.
I dont need friends who always assume that I have to satisfy their needs and sarcifing mine every single god damn time.
I dont need friends who judge me wrong without listening to me thoroughly.
I dont need friends who are just out to have fun and not being there for me when I need help.
I dont need friends who want me to give in single fucking time.
I dont need friends who dont understand that I need my own fucking space and time with my other friends and I certainly dont need friends who gets angry with me when their plan screwed the fuck up.
It's true what they say, Kawan biar ramai tetapi kawan yang sejati itulah sedikit jumlahnya.
And I dont mind, being with these people for the longest time 'cause being with these few friends, it's a life journey itself.
More soon!
:)
