Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Heart pouring session.
'' Dah sekolah mana ni?'''' Uni mana ?''
'' Tunangnyer mana ?''
'' Keje apa ?''
Dengar-dengar aku dah ada tunang apa. Dengar-dengar aku tengah ambik Degree pe. What's the blooody huge differance between last year and this year ?
Is it my apperance?
Is it my height?
Is it my face?
What?
What?!
These makciks when didnt meet for a year asked nonsense question. I just cant imagine if we dont meet for two whole years, jangan dia tanya mana anak aku sudah lah. Menyiraaaaaaap je.
I'm only eighteen for God's sake!! Please dont make me feel so old. In less then few months, I'm turning nineteen and a year to go before I hit twenty. Holy moly! I AM old. ( J , dont agree ah please. )
Alhamdulilah, life's been great so far. Amin.
I just celebrated my first two days of Raya. And it was a blast and tiring if I may add. Catch up with lots of relatives , no doubt. I feel good bout myself, 'cause this year, I've got my CK's heels, VS bags and my newly red hair, all of it paid by meeeeeee me meee ! Alhamdulilah. Now I can truely feel the satisfaction of spoiling myself!! And hopefully the 'ol man agrees to let me pay for my new phone come December.
This time it's The Magic I'm eyeing on.
I'm really missing alot of people right now.
Nad.
Hyun.
Ralvin.
Kat.
Feer.
J.
Shakinah.
It has been few months since I last saw them. For some of them, it has been six months or more! This can not be tolerated any longer. How can I NOT meet my favourite people for more than six months ? After this month of Eid Mubarak, I forsee dates with them. So keep your time slot free!
You know what makes me happy ? Two things. Love and J.
Being around him makes me feel so alive and special in so many ways. Alhamdulilah, it has been a bumpy ride somehow, but we got through it. More of these, certainly! :) ( Sorry, if you expect more juicy stuff, dont bother, I wont disclose. 'Cause it's privateeeeeeee~ )
For some, they knew bout J and I. How we didnt talk for so many months and lots of things have been happening of late. We had our silly issues between ourselves. We emailed each other and for that some point of time, we both really thought this was it. This is the end.
But no. Something got the better of me when I was sending that email. I let go of my anger and disppointment in that email without the slightest thought of how precious this decade old friendship. Days afterwards, I thought I'll feel better. I thought I'll move on with life. But somehow and something, kept holding me back. And I know, no matter what happened or no matter what issues we both have had or will be having in the future, we can never break.
Imagine almost a decade friendship gone just like that due to silly issues. What was I thinking, really? What was I trying to prove to myself? But Im glad I recovered within days later, I wont dare to imagine what would have happened if I let it prolong for much longer time.
Within thirty mintues of sorrys, of heart pouring, we both got back to normal state. We instantly got extremely crazy and talked nonsense that whole morning leading both of us texting till six in the morning. What just happened few months ago and what we shared withing that thirty mintues, was quickly put aside and with promises in our hearts to be a better friend to each other, we both carried on with life with a much more better meaning.
Now that we both are happily together with them in our life , I dont see how much happier we both can be for this moment. We'll always have each other back even if we break and we'll see each other throughout this journey. And by God, this is one of the precious bonds I'll treasure the most.
'Cause without the BFF, who else will know me so well. So bloody well that I need not explain myself anymore to be understood.
So J, here's to our many more years of friendship.
Nonsense.
Cock talking.
Dreams.
Aims
And more crazy four in the morning chats.
;)
