Monday, May 18, 2009
N
You know, this is the second post entitled 'N'. And yes, it's the same person I'm talkin' bout. So, I had my training last night together with my girls and Lydia. It was fun and exhausting. I turely enjoyed myself even though I was practically lost. The atmosphere was pretty boring intially but when it gets heat up, it really heat up.The place of training is located at Kranji Camp two. So what completes Kranji Camp two ? Yes army men, army trucks, army campsites and army whatever. Im really sensitive whenever I laid my eyes on army stuff. Some should know why.
So when I was at the parade square, I saw barracks. I saw their tracks. I saw them. And every single sight reminds me of N. I tried my very best to get my mind off these shits by enjoying my dance and the girls and Lydia's company. It did succeed for a while. But when I got home and on my bed. Hell, all hell broke loose.
It was driving me crazy! Whenever I saw Army men, I couldnt resist but look at their name tag and their faces. I'll look twice if not thrice! This sucks, really. I thought Im over that period of time when I can really face something that reminds me of the past and I'll say to myself '' Hey, I'm over that.'' But heck, when I looked around that campsite, I kept wondering if he's around. I know he's from different camp but what are the odds, no? I really need to get my head out of these shit.
I'll get there. I hope.
... audacity of hope
