Friday, April 3, 2009
Dreams
We dream, don't we ? Some people dream within their limits while some just dream way beyond what others thought would be that individual's limit. But who the heck are we to judge one's dream ? On the other hand , if I were to tell people what are my dreams and goals in life, they'll just shurg me off sayin' all of those are way beyond my limits.But I'm glad I know some people that I can really sit and talk bout almost every part of my dreams and goals. To some they may know what I want to be and to some I'll just share whatever I need/want in the future. Every little aspect. From my dream house, future husband looks alike and even to my ideal cars.
Yes, I'm already talkin' bout cars to some. To think that I dont wanna own one! But cirucumstances call for it ya know. I've a big family to big with. What with my grandma stayin' with me , my mum who loves goin' marketin' every weekends , my family who enjoys outgoin' short trips to Johor or Kuala Lumpur ; all of these, we need the suitable transportation - which is clearly car. Me being me , the elderst of the three, has to mend my goals/dreams for the betterment of my family, no ?
ANYWAYS, side trackin' here, does dreams really have limits ? Whatever happened to '' Don't be so judgemental!'' or '' Sky's the limit!'' or '' Push your boundaries beyond.'' ? I mean, seriously , I got indirectly judgement statements from few people who would indirectly say that whatever I dream to own is actually way beyond my limit. What more with me now in an ITE school. People have that '' Girl, you can't make it'' aura around me already. This sucks, really. Shame on these people or shame on me ? I've no idea.
What ? Only Polytechnic students are allowed to dreams of big cars and big fat salaries ? Fuck those thoughts fuckers. And ITE students can't even have that smallest of dreams to own those two ? Since fucking when does dreams are entitled to fuckers who attends Polytechnics or Junior Collages ? Or since when does one indiviual look down and just smirk to another indiviual who wants to own a BMW Rockster and to be a StockBroker ? Or since when does all of those dreams matters to the other human beings ? Or must certain clasters of society entitled to dream big dreams ?
I don't really get it you see. Enlighten me please. Can't we humans dreams of bigger dreams ? Can't a begger who wants to work hard and wants to a BMW one day , dream ? Can't a drop out who finally knocked on his head and dream that he wants to be the best know doctor , dream ? Can't we humans being stop being so goddamn judgemental already ?!?!?!!!!!
It's inevitable , I know. I'm just tryin' to wake some of you up and somehow or rather make ya'll realize that '' Hey, I should stop judging those faggots and treat them like humans as well.'' I'm ranting all of these out due to the fact that I got those remarks and looks from my own circle of friends and even families.
How sad, really. I'm not sad 'cause they don't support me 'cause I know Hyun and Ralvin ( and some others ) will always back me and support me whenever they feel and think I'm right. I'm sad 'cause these humans are having those thoughts yet again. Those sickenin' fuck up thoughts that only certain clasters of society can't dream and be successful. And I'm sad 'cause they called themselves '' Najihah's Friend'' but they are actually not supportin' someone whom they called friends. How low-ish these bastards can be. It's sad , 'cause they sometimes tell me on WHAT the fucks I should be dreamin' bout. Since fuckin' when is my life is their matter ? And from the families point of views, to think they call me their niece and cousin when they actually stop talkin' to me altogether when they knew this damn niece/cousin of theirs are goin' in ITE. Some families of mine did really smirk to me and have that aura again.
It's sad, alrite. 'Cause I can never commuincate with these friends and families of mine with regards to my true self. I can't be as open as I want to be with them. I cant be as honest as a judge should be with them. It's only that selected fews that I can and forsee support from. And I can forsee them talkin' behind my backs bout my dreams/goals. I don't dream a small dream. I dream big dream. We all dream, might as well dream big, no ?
Why don't some of you wake up and see what reality has got to offer. Try to put yourself in someone else's shoes. Yes, may be they flunk or wasntthat successful along the way, but they can still dream now , can't they ? Will failure be a failure throughout their life and won't/can't dream ? No they won't. We failures buck our shits up when we fall that low. Like me, I clearly don't expect myself to land in ITE but I didnt even appeal for a place in Polytechnic also, 'cause why, I dream big. I dream big fat dreams. And I know how to mend my ways. But what I hate bout some of these people in my life is that , just because I'm in ITE already , I can't fuckin' dream. Heck, the lower I land, the bigger I dream, isnt that right Hyun ? :)
Dreams will naturally comes with hardwork, really. I've achieved some of my dreams with a lot of hardwork attached to it. I know how tough it is like to achieved our big dreams. But with the right amount of hardwork and support from both friends and families we'll get there, no ?
So readers, sit back and think. Why do some of us actuall look down on other people dreams and judge that they can't have that sort of drea ? Why do we humans judge someone solely on their failures? Why do YOU people are having these narrow minded mindsets ? I'm not talkin' from a ITE student here, but from a normal human being. I've recieved lots of negatives impact from some of you just wake the fuck up and think. 'Cause all you need is a bit of a mind and heart to actually say that '' Hey, anyone can dream no matter how low they've landed, 'cause everyone ARE given the freedom to dream.''
If you have those thoughts bout me , I've no intentions in correcting them 'cause it's your own set of mind. But I'm just curious on human judgemental mind, enlighten me if you want to, 'cause I dont judge someone who dream big dreams, in fact as far as I can remember, I support in whatever they want to achieve. Am I right ?
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//Edit// For those who're in my shoes, I'm feelin' you let's prove to them that we can make it! You've my support in whatever you dream for th e betterment of your future. //
