Monday, November 24, 2008
The late night impromptu met up with girlfriend was much needed ( not to mention my Starbucks drink to. Heh ) We hugged so tightly in the middle of TopShop , that 'cause Zahid ( Girlfriend's workin' partner ) to smile a big smile. Maybe he was shocked. Heh. We did lots of sharin' , especially on her part. She was and still is hurt. I could clearly see her mouth shook and her nose turned red and her eyes started to go all watery. I reached up and held her hands. I really do hope by my touch she'll be fine. That night when I met her , she was crushed and ... small. I have never seen her in that state at all. All this while she was all cheery and happy bout the way life is. But now, well, anybody will be in her state when it comes to the matters of the heart, no ? I was really downhearted when I saw her in that state.
And when we parted , I really hoped that she would give me that sweet big smile of hers. But it was a vain hope I must say. There were no huge or loud laughters by her that night. How lonely I felt around her, really.
So girlfriend, I hope you'll be fine asap , ok ? I know it sucks to be in this position but this is life for you my dear. There are times when you'll be on top of the world and there will be times when you are at your lowest point. It's hard to pick yourself up so soon but believe me , you'll make it through. I believe in you ok my dear Estee ? And I love ya :)
On the same note, Jannah is also in the same state as Estee is. God, why does my two girls face the same thing. I really feel sad for Jannah though. I couldnt be there to really comfort her like how I did to Estee. I really wish I could do just that ya know girl.
May be this is the phase that both girls must go through in order to be much stronger women, no ? There are reasons as to why these girls are goin' through this turmoil now, the reasons only HE knows. And I'm sure , when HE takes away good from ya'll , HE will replace it with a much better one. We all know that, no ? :)
Chin up Jannah! You're a bubbly girl , I do not want to see you all sad when I meet you one of these days ya know. I want to see that girl who has loud laughters than I do. We both know you deserve much more better guys , no ? He doesnt deserve your heart I must say. He's nowhere near your knight in shinin' Armani suit ya know! You'll own a guy who loves you more than you love him, ok ? You'll have and get him one fine day. Carpe diem my ah girl! :) Love you.
Seein' 'em in this state reminds me of 2k7 , which I don't want to even bring it up now. I'm happy the way my life is. Last year was a horrible in disgust year. But hey, I'm all smiles now. Thank God for that. :) Alhamdulilah.
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Wahhhhhhhh, my legs are still jelly now. Thanks to the after midnight game of pool and the late supper and superduper early breakfast at four over in Boon Lay with Lydia and Ahmad. I must say, I love the way Ahmad drive. He was faster than my dad!! I love it. I kept on '' Wooooohoooo''-in' at the backseat. I was even sent flyin' to the right hand of the backseat! I love the moment when he did his turnin' , he was actually driftin'! Heh heh.
That's one of the best way to close my agenda for the weekends. Oh and I love his rented car pls.
DAD !! Buy Mazda!
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And I miss you with all my heart. Oh , did I mention that ...... Well, let time tell
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