Monday, October 13, 2008
You're the first guy that listen to my cryin's in the middle of the night. Omg I'm talkin' gibberish now. We're both afraid but you kept it goin'. You made me feel damn good. I dont know why. But I'm just afraid. It's too fast and we both are afraid. We're both scared. You assured me time and again that we'll be fine. I'm afraid and scared to hold on to your words. I need a hug and you gave it to me. I need comfort and you're always around. No ones knows bout your existence in my life but we both know. You said it's ok to cry but it's not for me.
I'm in my wits end now. Why must you always makes me feel good ? Why you always makes me feel alive. You said you want to know more and you'll not leave me alone. You saw right through me. You know that I'm ego and stubborn but you kept goin'. You said you believe you can change me. You said you believe you can make me a polite and less ego than I am now. Your believe kept me alive. I hate to admit it but now I'm doin' it.
What you did for me tonight ( Monday mornin' ) was nothin' done by anyone in my life. Ok may be my bestiess and girlfriends have done it before. But not a guy has ever done it. And you did.
Pointless entry but it means so much to me.
Thanks LC for hearin' me out. Thank you so much love. Aku sayang kau ok? Thanks for makin' me smile mcm kerang busuk skrg ni.
Let me say it again , no one knows bout your existence in my life but we both know. We both are afraid.
... hangin'
