Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I told Nad , my head's in a damn mess. I wanted to logoff from my Msn asap, but I can't resist the urge to blog. To let my thoughts flow and let my feelin's out. I realized one thing bout myself this year. I tend to keep the thoughts to myself more this year then last year. I found myself deletin' and backspacin' my thoughts after half way it was out. May be I grew more cautions with the people who are/have been readin' my blog. Sometime I recieved comments that I am actually attached to some guy when I'm not. Sometime I received unexpected comments from random people. Sometime some random people that I'm not really close to come up to me and said '' Hey I recognise you Naj.'' Peculiar and scary if you ask me. Yes, that's why I tend to keep more then let it all out. May be that's why people eventually close down their blog. They feel that they are been watched and known. But as far as I'm concern , I'm not in the near radar of closin' down this blog of mine. Not yet I guess. Never, perhaps ? I treasure this space of mine. The bad , sad and happy times are all in here. That makes me even more sure to not close down this space of mine. However, it's indeed scary , no ? To be known by people you're not even close too. Make that be known to people you last talked to 'em like months , ages ago ?
Drop that.
School's killer. Knockin' off as late as six thirty in the evenin', stuck with my project really pushed me off my limits. What more , the project's due date is in eight more days. My half way done artefact has been a good moderate task. Just a few clarifications and I'm on my waaaaaaaay! I really want to get it over and done with. I'm sick and tired of bendin' down and filin' my arylic sheet. I'm sick and tired of sandin' my mould with the Disc machine. I'm sick and tired of smellin' the Cholroform. I'm sick and tired of join' and assemblyin' all my parts. I just sick and tired of Design and Technology people. I want to get it over and done it by this week. I don't care how and I will.
Thanks Ralvin and Ian for givin' me the helpin' hand whenever I'm especially high on Coffee in the workshop or when I was just too tired to do filin' and Braso my arylic piece of shit. Thanks ya, really. =) !
Studies are alrite. Catchin' up slowly and steadly. I guess, if I were to rush and panick now, I would be more worn out then I already am. Trust me, I hit my bed my eleven thirty this week ; even if it's only Tuesday, I forsee that routine for this week. When I actually always hit my sacks by three after feelin' accomplished. I can't keep up with that routine this week. Especially worn out like fuck.
My head's heavy these days. Lack of sleep and sudden wake up alarms and calls from mum I guess. I think it's my minor mirgane attacks period. I reackon next week would be bad. Been there done that. But still I couldn't slow pace myself any longer. I've to keep this pace or move alil bit faster to keep up with the damn demands and the works that are on hold. Tons of works lack of time. If only I could just have that twenty four/fourty eight hours of not sleepin' attitude and drive again, I wouldnt be feelin' depressed every single day. For in that long period of hours, I'll be able to complete majority of my work. And trust me, wheneven I spent that amount of time, I feeel waaaaaaaaaaay damn accomplished then ever before. How I do it ? Coffee baby, it's coffee.
Speakin' of which, I've yet to have my coffee for days. May be that explains my disablity to stay up long hours and knock out exactly at eleven thirty or earlier. Hmmm, may be I should do weekly reflections or weekly thoughts flowin' like this. May be I wouldn't be too depressed for I let out everythin' here and feel especially lighter on the mind the next minute.
Colin and Ralvin ganged up to bully me. Yes they do. Both of 'em are good team members if it comes to make me angry durin' my project period. However, I couldn't get angry that long with Ralvin. It was Colin that drove me up the wall every single time he opened up his mouth last week. I was so angry and pissed off last week that I said somethin' hurtful and rude and booyyy , feel at ease or whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat ? He has to know when to joke and be serious. No Colin, life's no joke.
And oh, today, there was a freakin' baby bat in my class. Where exactly ? It was hangin' itself upside down right beside to the window I seated next to. Believe it or not. A freakin' baby bat hangin' itself beside me on my window classroom panel. I don't even have the damn clue on how on the blue earth would that baby bat had itself stuck on my four storey classroom window panel. Amazin' or not ? HELL NO HOKAY !!!!! Firman knocked the window panel and bat woke up and was on inside part of my classroom window !! ( It was intially outside of my classroom window panel ). He think he was a big damn joker ya know! Ralvin was infuritated , I swear he was. ( That fella has an amazin' soft side for animals ) What Firman did really scared me that I went all the way to the classroom door in order for me to be ready to dash out from the class if the bat were to fly around!
And WZ said , '' Imagine the bat bite us, the next second we all hang upside down loh ! Like vampire. And then the bat crawl all around you and it'll go under your skirt and go to your vagina.'' WAH LAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU !!!! He thought it was a damn joke! And he can even laughed out loud so loud with his evil eyes on the bat. He thought he the master of all bats you know. Nehneh lah he. Nabey.
Mam: How did the bat get in ?
Firman: One of the girls gave birth to a baby bat Mam!
Another damn joker. He think he's funny.
Another long random countless post. So what ?
Pardon the stupid english, can't be bothered to even type in proper english. Like I give a damn like that. Not that I don't, it's a blog mah. Why must I use all my NOTSUITABLEVOCABULARIES on this blog ? Ehk Akinso, don't be fake ah ! I hate you can ? ;))
... sick actually
