Thursday, July 24, 2008
I lost my goddamn Social Studies notes that Tracy gave it to me. I did couple of sticky pad notes on it as well. Now it's all gone. I was so fucked up yesterday that I ended up cryin' so hard that Akinso thought that someone died. Yes, that's how fuckin' fucked up I was. Just who in the name of Lord stole it away ? I'm sure as hell I didnt misplaced it, for I didnt even open up my bag on Tuesday night. And I last saw my notes Monday mornin'. Tuesday , we didnt have Social Studies. So my notes was pretty save in between my other worksheets. I ransacked my bag and my thick Humanities files and not to forget my box of filessszszs. I just could not find it anywhere. God damn it sial. Come on man, what the worse shit that could have happened to one when prelim's nearin' ! GOD DAMN LAH SIALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL !! Fuck. Now , I've to use someone's notes to make photocopy. I lost the whole junk of it hokay ? The fuckin' whole junk of notes. Whoever stole it, I swear, flunk your damn O's and all the up comin' tests and prelims you flunk it like fuck too. God damnit.
Fuck it. I swear, I'll get to the fuckin' bottom of this.
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Now now woman, karma's actin' up , no ? Do you feel how Lay Teng feel ? Do you now feel what we all feel ? Sucha pity ya know. You doll yourself up , you study hard , you shop till you drop , but there's no pinch of good manners in you. What did you do when all came crashin' down ?
You cry in the goddamn class. Cry ? Is that all you can do ? Sucha hyprocrite.
That's for bitchin' behind my goddamn back.
That's for lowerin' down Lay Teng's self confidence.
That's for been sucha goddamn two face woman.
That's for been damn arrogant.
That's for accussin' Yvn to brainwash Hyun. ( just what you think Hyun is anyway ? A weak woman who cant even stand on her goddamn principles ? GOD! You really have to open up your eyes)
That's for sayin' Hyun's b looks like Febian.
That's for every shit and bitch that you be.
That's for been sucha hypocrite towards Jack.
I just don't know what's in that head of yours. Yes you ace in all tests. Yes you're one of the pretty students around, but think again. There's so much more in education that you should have. There's so much more than just money girl. So goddamn more.
Think and conclude. Is this the type of life you want ?
Is this how you want others to treat you?
Is this how you want to carry yourself ?
Labellin' Lay Teng fat and ugly doesn't get you anywhere. Just what do you get to disturb someone who does not even provoke you in the first place? Just what the hell you want woman ?
I'm sayin' this on behalf of the rest. Believe me girl , you'll be surprised to know who hate you. You'll be much more surprised.
Get your damn feet back on the ground and be humble. Don't be sucha eye sore.
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Akinso's minah rep.
Twenty six dollar people!
Colin, stop vandalisin' my goddamn table.
I love candid pictures taken durin' class today.
Akinso impersonation of Madam Rozi, Fauziah and Mr Chng was goddamn hilarious.
Yesterday after school was crazy.
DnT been sucha pain in the goddamn ass.
Math test was ok. But it wasnt till the last five mintues. I reazlied that my paper doesnt have question three. Bodoh or what sial aku ni ?
I just hate her to the goddamn core.
And I'm still not fine , thank you.
Movie date ? I don't know lah ehk.
DeadlinesdeadlinesDEADLINES. I hate deadlines.
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Pukimak sapa yang bukak mulut ehk ?
Bagus.
I shall not do anythin'. I shall wait patiently for karma to slap shut in your goddamn face woman.
Mulut pukimak ni lah yang akan tengok kau nangis satu hari , ok ? Dah sah malayu.
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... so hard to forgive
