Saturday, July 19, 2008
I just hate it on how much downright nice you can be. I just hate it on how you can judge me simply based on exterior facts.
You have got to understand why I did what I did last night. Even if the action I did was extremely easy and sweet victory on my side.
You both have got to stop be so goddamn naive and wake up. It is aint easy for me either to put up the fucken damn drama. I did it cause of grandma. No grandma , I swear , I wouldnt even attend today's ''big'' celebrations.
Sometime I just do not understand why she can still give ideas to them when they clearly hated her. Mum, can you please for god's and my sake , quit been so goddamn nice and not naive? I swear I'll fight with you again. I just don't want you to be the victim of these people's mouth. Dad, you have got to understand that they hate mum. You have got to understand that these people doesnt even give a flying fuck towards us dad. Quit been so nice to 'em. They can be in their own goddamn world and we can be in ours. Dad , mum, if only I could let you see what I can saw, if only I could let you hear what I heard , I wouldnt be fightin' with you both in the car and at home respectively.
I did what I did for the good of the whole family. There is no hell way I'm gonna make you both the victim of these people's mouth. Trust me on this. One day, just one day dad mum, just that one goddamn day, you'll understand.
But now, everything's difficult. Grandmama just held my hands yesterday night and asked me to be there today. How can I ever let my fav. woman down ? Oh God, why do you even put me into this position where all my loves one involve around those hyprocrites ? Damnit.
... bitch
