Monday, July 28, 2008
At this very moment of time, I doubt I'm near the word fine nor happy. I'm in my weakest state of mind. People have been givin' me problems which leads to meetin' back to back. I may sound as though a huge commitments and responsibilities are on my back. It is , actually. A huge commitments and responsibilities. So huge that I've to face a very deadly aftermath. However, it was the choice that I took. The choice that I chose. No doubt the ultimate fault was mine and mine alone. However, I strongly , personally , and spiritually , believe that somethin' good will come out of this huge ''thing''. I am tired and worn out , needless to say , but it is somethin' I know I would find comfort in. Ironic but true.
This particular phase of life that I am goin' through is somethin' I would love to prolong. Even if I want to just shout and scream and give up that is everythin' in hand. Weird, I know. Because through this, I would come out as a much stronger person ; physically , mentally and spiritually. I've learnt a lot durin' my weekend. Groundbreakin' , breathe takin' and no doubt , mind blowin' weekend, but I know, everythin' comes down to a good course for me and for my core team, and not to forget , a good course for my O's too.
This feelin' so strong. I couldn't stop givin' my best. Even if I'm short of time. Even if I'm chasin' for time. The force behind this is stronger then ever. This is all worthwhile, I just know it. At the end of the day, it is how I decided to face everythin'.
I'm tired physically and generally not happy but there's no complanin' from me. Despite the fact that my deadline few hours away. I know, I'll be fine, postive.
... =) Thank you, you
