Monday, April 21, 2008
They can never stop it with Zul. I don't even know why but Zul also can't stop either. What I saw on Asidah's friendster was , well, little off guard ?Jeez. How pretty contradictin'.
It has been rumors all this while. I didn't even get a damn bout it. But heck, when he mention that he will kiss her if we play true or dare, that's pretty disturbin'.
It doesn't help again, when what Hyun said couple of weeks back ..'' he looked sad and disappointed when I say you only like angmoh.''
As if it's my fault like that I like angmoh. ( Self assurance )
But that one phrase that Tracy once told me. A phrase that I , well , strongly believe in. '' What others feel bout you that matters girl. You'll always want that someone to feel it first.''
Which is pretty somewhat true ?
I don't know. I've contradict myself for over twenty times now but it still not clear nor precise like how I always contradict myself in some other matters and I be all clear by the twenty first contradictions.
But what if Zul just play along with the rumor like how Akin played along with the rumors regardin' her and Raja ?
May be I should play along too ? It would be fun , wouldnt it?
And another , but , I believe in karma. It wouldnt be fun at all if it happen to me in the future, wouldnt it ?
This is not a burden for me to think for I find it pretty fun. Why ? Well, let just say it gets my principles and prospect better in some sense. I tend to look at life better when I question more and more. And when I finally get the answer , I would then evaluate and see if the result suits my way of life. Which I think so far, the answers never did once doesnt suit my cup of coffee.
I guess life for some people tends to be more fun and enjoyable while some people's life tend to be filled with difficult moments, hard setbacks and even scary life lesson - near death experience or witness a dead body eyes were wide open. Then and only then , would life get better for these some people.
In this stage that I'm in, I would go for the latter. Cause I just witness a very scary life lesson last saturday. But my life could be fun and enjoyable if I want it to be.
Oh well, that's how life works doesnt it ? You thought that life would be like this, but it turned out to be like that the next day. You thought that it'll be fine to ignore certain experience, but it turend out that very experience that you ignored , is actually your life biggest lesson.
Ignorance is bliss ? Well, you decide.
I know I'm been random for I've not been bloggin' for days and when I don't blog my head tends to be in a huge mess for I've no space to put down my random and nonsensical thoughts.
Thanks for the advance technology that I could put my thoughts here.
Some people just wouldn't understand why I would blog.
Some people just wouldn't understand how we bloggers actually expose our private life to others.
May be they just don't understand how open some can be.
If you've a blog, then why private your life ?
What's blog all bout anyway ?
I'm contradictin' myself, am I not ?
I am tryin' to be as open as I can get for I really can't tolerate my thoughts to be kept in this small brain of mine.
Please do take note that once I click Publish Post , I will always feel ten kilogram lighter. Why ? For I've lighten myself by puttin' all my thoughts here.
Ahhh, wonders of technology.
So you can basically see how bloody random I can get.
From Zul to this.
Oh well, been random is nothin' alien.
Hyun much more random, I swear she is.
And OH! It's been a while since I last update myself regardin' Formula One. I guess, I would do just that right bout now.
... randomly selected eIght !
