Monday, March 24, 2008
I could have hug Yao Tong tightly when he gave me the most handsome and manly smile ever!! God! It has been ages since I last saw that fella. I am sooOoo and tOooo happy to see him like finally. Too happy that I keep on eatin' Baby sis's sweets. Too happy that I smiled en route home. '' How come you never call me up leh? ''
'' Must I call you up ?''
'' Yes lah ! You said wanna go shoppin' with me mah ! You said you wanna date with me 'cos long time never meet !''
''AH! I say one meh ? ''
'' YA LAH!''
'' Errmmm, sorry ah. Busy ah. '' Excuses only , I totally forget bout our long lost promise man ! Sheesh.
'' See I still have your number'' Showed me my number , I was taken aback. Totally speechless.
'' I lost your number ah , you miss call or leave me a message can ?''
.......
Then he went on sayin' how could I ever forget him or even lost his number. We bid our goodbye and off we went. God, I miss you like god know how much I miss you ! I know I'm not makin' a damn sense here. But I don't bloody care.
I am just so happy that my long lost friend still have me dearly in his heart. And that he actually remembered our promise. To think that the girl is the one that usual remember promises.
Now, that's what I called true good friends.
Just the other day, both aDeQ and myself talked bout Epul. Our long best buddy I must say. He is but the most supportive friend we both have. I am very much glad that we three had crossed path years ago. And I'm proud to say, even if we meet up barely two times a year, he still has us in our heart like how he is in ours.
I don't wish nor want to dwell on the past that I had clearly passes by. But the lost of a true friend mid last year really pull me up to be much more stronger person to face any circumstances. Ironically, I could cry just by listenin' to the song that was and still is , dedicated to the dear one.
To think that we both had a pretty close bond for the last two years , to think that we both used to hang and paint the town grimson red. To think that people mistaken us as brothers and sisters. It just so hard to let the memories. There is never a day that I go by without the simple pray for my late friend. There is never a day that I go through not thinkin' bout how much I treasure all the friends around me.
It had a very huge impact on me that I've decided to tresure and cherish each and everyone around me. Families especially. I could never fathom how much saddness and heartbreak that would cause on me. Likewise to any lose of friends. Any lose at all.
When I knew that Naz had an accident couple of weeks backs, my heart skipped.
When I knew that Nabil has been in and out of the hospital, my heart skipped.
When I knew that Miss Hyun has been goin' through stomach ucler, my heart skipped a fuckin' beat.
I am that scared. But I am that strong to put up an iron front. It's contradictin' and all.
But one certain fact that I'm sure, I've learnt a whole lot from the lose of the good friend.
Through that lose , we all had learnt how to be stronger.
Through that lose too, we hall had learnt how precious each and everyone around us is.
Henceforth, treasure , cherish and love. For you may not know when's the last.
You're in our heart. Al-Fatihah.
... loss is never to be dwell upon
