Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Eighteen years of marriage may not be long for some, but it's indeed long for my both parents. I've said my piece to both of 'em this afternoon via mobile. We are pretty busy people with different commitments to fulfill despite the fact that we stay in the same house, same roof, same floor, same unit, same ... you get it. Mum. Dad. Happy Eighteen years of Marriage. We all love you both each and everyday. In fact our love grows every single day. We love you both even more you could ever ever imagine.
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I'm used to type and express myself long winded when it comes to my friends or families special days. But not today. Yes even if parents are way much more important. I've said my piece personally to 'em , hence that will replace with what I've got to say.
How stubborn one can actually be. I've gave my word , advice and support in which and whatever way I can. I've spent a good quality amoung of time to make sure you people are hangin' on with dear life. Be it family or relationship problems. Yes, I am in no senior state to give anyone advice on certain issues. That's when Kat , aDeQ and mum comes in. They are my senior in many many matters in life. I could count on 'em in whatever matter.
But when people keep on comin' to me with the same ( sorry, this time I would not keep any anger in me. I would spout anything I wanna spout ) fuckin' bullshit TO THINK THAT I'VE HELP 'EM and when they face the same shit and they are hurt the fuckin' same way and come to me again and again and again. What the fuck am I suppose to do ?
I've already gave you my piece of advice, for one fuckin' year, and you still don't get the shit. And you still wanna give that jerk a fuckin' chance. You go and give him that fuckin' chance. I can't be fuckin' bothered. And if he treat you like dirt and givin' you excuses to not wantin' to meet you like how he did for one fuckin' year, that it's your fuckin' problem. I don't fuckin' care no more.
Yes, I want all my friends to be happy and safe. But am I suppose to be standin' around and be your fuckin' friend and keep on be your fuckin' listenin' ear ? Am I suppose to give you advice when you yourself not followin' mine advice ? To think that my advice was favoured by your own friends and cousins. What did your product design partner said ? '' LUPAKAN LELAKI TU.'' See, even she agreed to what I've to say. And you bloody don't listen ? And you still wanna give that fuckin' jerk the umpteen chances. Then it's your fuckin' problem.
I am sick and fuckin' tired with people who don't listen and learn from their very CLEAR AND KNOWN fuckin' mistake. I am sick and fuckin' tired to advice to deaf fuckin' ears. I am sick and tired of people cryin' again and again to their repeated mistakes.
Standin' and advicin' you for close to a fuckin' year was fuckin' enough for me.
And I am startin' to ignore and by pass Shakinah's fuckin' problem as well. It seems that her boyfriend has started to beat her up again. To think that I've stood by her for fuckin' three years.
Three fuckin' long years I've asked her to leave her abusive boyfriend.
Three fuckin' long years I've asked her to report her abusive jerk boyfriend.
Three fuckin' long years I've almost lost my friendship with her due to the fact that she doesnt want leave her boyfriend.
I AM SICK AND FUCKIN' TIRED.
And if you think I've no stand up on my principles, you are fuckin' wrong human. Get your fuckin' damn shit facts right before you shove it all up on my face.
Cause if you're wrong, you die.
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Damn, that was good.
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Studyin' with Miss Hyun was productive much. I've found Oskar Schindler's book. I can't bloody wait to read it after O's. Miss Hyun, we must head down to the library earlierrrrrrr and we must catch that Korea/Chinese guy for you fasterrrrrrrrrrr and we must mussssssssst!! open our eyes bigger for more angmoh and ABCs and ABKs and pure Koreans. ( OK, the last three options are for you lah Miss Hyun , mampos , kau ada manyak laki to check out. Pakai contact lense or specs lah Miss Hyun ! )
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Thanks Jannananannanana. Thank Miss Hyun. Thank this blog space. I soooo need people and space to rent my frustration out.
If I'm in the same shoe as those people, bitch slap me anytime , please. For I want to wake up from the fantasy world.
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Life is very ironic and contradictin'. I don't smoke but I want to sheesha. I'm afraid of heights but I want sooOo bloody much to take the wild ride of both GMX 5 and Super Swing with Khairil. And when drama episodes are actually occurin' in our life, you just want to shut it away. But when it doesn't happen , you long for it.
May be the drama episodes happened durin' the wrong period of your life. Or your fantasy was not has good as it should be when it comes crushin' down in a form of reality.
May be that's why Miss Hyun is confused even if her drama episode is occurin' in her life right now as we speak.
May be that's why I shut R away. ( Miss Hyun, you know who ).
But we both know , our time will come.
... to be kind is to be cruel
