The sinful yet delicious and finger lickin' and to die for Tobleroneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! My all time favourite.
With little , simple yet meanin'ful note attached along with it. 
Tell me, how can we NOT smile in the early mornin' ? Tell me , how can we NOT treasure the normal five ? Tell me, how can we NOT be there for each other for the past five years ? It touches all of us. It really did. Even the little little way of Ralvin expressin' his random kindess or the little little way of us be there for each other be it academically , emotionally or physically, it touches the heart of all five of us.
This is something I'll hold on to dearly for a long. Ten years down the road, when I turn back, I could proudly admit what true and surprisin' friends I had made that five years. To think that we are livin' this last year together. It saddened me so sooo much. People, I can't let go of ya'll. And Ralvin ah! Thanks for your act of random kindness. We love it. We really do.
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Saturday was spent relaxin' by Palawan Beach. It was Azmi's idea to spend our time swimmin'. It has been a long while since I last met the cousin or even swam with 'em. And hence, Azmin , Akak Nurul and myself , we head down to Sentosa last Saturday.
Even if there were three of us, it was extreme fun and hectic moments! We exchanged stories from school to teenage nowadays to the problem that we all have been facin' for months now. We walked down the memory lane. Yes we did. We talked bout our long trip down to the many part of Malaysia years ago. We shared the experiences that we all had durin' that long trip. From Tokcik wearin' shower cap when swimmin' in both swimmin' pool and the sea to the nights that we spent lookin' up to the sky and count the sparklin' stars in the van which we were clearly on the way to our destinations. It was sucha sweet memories that we still hold on till to date. We just hope that what's happenin' in our family would be solved someday , somehow or rather. We miss the gatherin's every other weekend, we miss the long trip via van to other part of Malaysia,we even miss the moments when the whole chalet belong to us twenty of us.
And we each accomplished something that Saturday. Azmi could now proudly swim butterfly style with a breeze. I for one, who love swimmin' , was jealous. Screw you Azmi. Come next month better teach me how to swim butterfly style ah ! I'm sick and tired of swimmin' freestyle and frog style lah dok !
Both Akak Nurul and myself, we managed to do handstand and a flip in water. How cool ! And not to mention that Azmi could do his handstand in the waters for the longest time ever ! Screw you double cousin !! Sheesh. But what the heck, we all had our fun time tryin' umpteen times to get our handstand and flip in the most prefect and accurate way. And by the end of the day, we all managed to accomplish it. We were all smilin' and praisin' each other's effort.
Now it's our turn to make sure the rest of the cousin could do handstand and the flip.
I realised, we look so much alike, don't we ? With the specs and the smile and all. My very clever and our future medical professor cousin ; Akak Nurul. She's my motivater. She makes me wantin' to give my all for O's.
The second medical professor in the runnin'. He's damn big and damn clever and damn smart ass man. He was actually extremely famished. Due to the fact that he kept on swimmin' and swimmin' and swimmin' without the slightest thought bout us ladies.
'' Jihah, swim ah. ''
'' Kau tak penat pe siak ?''
'' Swim je lah ! Lembik ah kau''
Lembik otak kauu ahhhhhhh !
Cousinsssssssssss !! Bowlin' , pool and more of swimmin' after my O's ah ! That's a promise , ok ? I had extreme fun with you people. And I sayang you people for makin' my day. What are cousins for , yes ? Jihah sayang you people ah ! ***
Random pictures of Sabrina.
Isnt she just a sweetheart and a cute , to die for and cheerful toodler ? I would just die for her to keep that smile and laughter goin'. There's nothin' that could ever stop me from lettin' that little toodler sister of mine be the best that she can be and be as happy as she can. Jihah sayang you okies Ina ? Don't grow up so fast my darling. ***
I just dont wanna carry on and pretend that I care.
For I don't.
Should I care when you yourself don't even have the slightest care bout your well being ?
Time and time again, I reminded you bout your life and the way it should be.
But you choose not to listen.
I don't even know why I even bothered to talk things out with you.
For may be I cared too much before
For may be I was taken advantaged off
But I pushed all the negative side, and always have this in mind
'' If no one care for you, who would ?''
'' If no one tresure and praise you for your merit , who would ? ''
'' Cause everyone deserve second chances in life.''
'' And when someone I give second chances are my friends.''
But heck, you proved me wrong.
You go the way your life that was before.
You just don't listen.
You dont get how much we all cared.
And you go on and on , bout what you should do.
But when we all gave you advice and suggestion, you just dont listen.
Forgive me for been a bad fren.
Forgive me for doin' this.
But heck, there's THIS much we can do.
But there's THAT BLOOODY much you can do for your own good.
I don't want things to go sour.
But what am I to do ?
Go on, cause I can't care no more.
Go and live on, cause I've been there for more then a year to help you.
Go and live and survive on, cause I can't help no more.
I've just give up.
Remember, you're not a burden.
but you just simply can't listen and understand.
I'm sorry for my part.
Truely am sorry.
***
I take back what I said in the first para. I've lots to say, and I've say it.
... to call my own
