Thursday, January 17, 2008
Dear Grandma ,Just be extremely fine and listen to the voice within. There's nothin' for you to be tensed and worried. We are even more worried for you. There's nothin' more worryin' then you goin' through this hardship for the second time. And if is the way it has to be, there's no other way for us to avoid you goin' through this hardship. I for one, will never allow you to just keep mum and suffer it all alone. I did never keep mum last two years and I will not keep mum this time. I am gonna stand by your bedside and go through this hardship with you , Grandmama. Even if it takes many of my hours of studyin', there's nothin' more worryin' then seein' you goin' through this hardship again and again.
You dedicated your life in takin' care of us all. Includin' kenit whom apparently you spent more time enjoyin' with her and not takin' care of her due to the fact that you're retired - but it's all fine. We would rather you enjoy your time then takin' care that little kid who well, apparently extremely stubborn. Just be extremely , extremely fine.
Don't be afraid to face this again. God gave you this test cause HE knows you can go through it Grandma. HE who know you best. We are all gonna pull through this together. You, me, mum, dad and every single one of our family. It's a lie if I said I'm not the least afraid, I actually am. There's nothin' more scary and worryin' to witness this saga all over again. It's another nightmare that we all know will end one fine day. The nightmare that's gonna end soon with all our support and love. We are all here just for you.
I'm all afraid to even look at it. I'm all tense to even think bout it. I'm all scared to even speak bout it, but believe me when I say, I'll be brave just for you. Please be extremely fine. I am worried for you. Just listen to the voice within. What it says, just follow it with true heart Grandma. I know you can pull through this. I know you can make it through again. You may be exhausted, you may give up half-way through this tirin' and tedious process, but do remember, I am here just for you. We are all here. No matter what it takes , no matter what may come , no matter of all the odds that we would be facin' , we'll always love and support you. I love you.
There's nothin' more worryin' to witness your love ones sufferin' mentally, physically and emotionally. And I'm all worried and scared. Scared for what may come, worried for the outcome. Nevertheless, I'll be brave - and it's a promise.
Much much tender love,
Najihah Ismail
... stays for a life time.
