Wednesday, November 7, 2007
We both know how shockin' and unexpected the sudden met up was. You seems reluctant to make the first move. However, I am sincerely glad that we did had an exchanges of casual greetin's to the downhearted conversation as well. I remembered clearly how egoistic I was in blockin' you off from my Msn. I remembered clearly how stubborn I was in not wantin' to meet you in any of Darul Ma'wa gatherin'. I remembered clearly how big headed I was before. These past few months, I have actually decided to delete you off from my mind.
But who am I kiddin' now man ? This is the reality for God's sake. And reality bites.
I admit, I was that egoistic, big headed and stubborn. Nothin' goes through this thick skull of mine. Nothin' works to get my sense comin' in. All I could think off was my own pain and heartache. All I could think off was my own world. My own. My whole lot damn own.
I believe, autobiaography, life stories, life testimony and even blogs unfold stories of each and special indiviuals. From their own story rangin' from clubbin' to marriage to break ups to new found love to every little thangs that life has got to offer, it has and will be unfold from those respective media. And through this media, I learn. I learnt how to live and let live. I learnt sufferin's from others, I learnt happy moments from 'em as well. That's how I come to learn that even this babe's life, is no different. And again, I come to learn how big headed I was.
'' No, Naj, No. Everyone suffers. Everyone will learn through the harsh reality. Medication is not sweet either. Every single human will suffers and they will shine again one day. Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone deserves second chances. '' The voice had said once before. I shut it away.
But now, I let it out and took control over me;willin'ly. Now, I'm willin' come up to you and ask how you been doin' even if I did once shut you away from my life. Now, I'm willin' to ask how's your heart in the midst of all the cries and heartache you been through. Now,, I'm willin'ly held you cheecks and voiced out couple of words to ensure you that we're cool now.
I've learnt and I've mature much more today.
Finally, yes, finally. I've crack that nutshell. We're cool now. Let's all not burn our heart with flames of anger anymore. Let's all be cool and enjoy what's the future has to hold.
Eza babe, life has been rough on you. You've got to be strong and put up a tough fight to go through this heavy and drastic downpour. May your life filled with much love and look into the future with much zest babe. *smiles.*
I've now learnt not to hold anymore hatred.
Second chances are meant to be given to those who you feel worth the extra amount of time in your life.
... step by step, I'll change
