Thursday, September 27, 2007
It has been awhile since I last chatted with Tracy or even with aDeQ. I've been hittin' the sacks by 2230 hours. Even if I slept early these couple of days, I could never feel refresh when I woke up in the mornin'. How sickenin' and disturbin' , aye ?Both my ladies; Tracy and aDeQ are facin' relationship problems of their own. Two totally different cases. I could never be there for 'em due to the fact that I was pretty jam packed with my school. The thought of me sayin' that I would be there for 'em anytime of the day haunt me like no body bisness. The truth fact is that, I've not been there for my ladies.
Behind those screen of theirs, they were both cryin' their heart out. Tracy wanted so much to hug someone but I am not that. aDeQ wanted so much to talk to someone and again, I was not there. I know through my jampack weekdays I've neglected both of my lovely ladies. The thought of even textin' 'em slip of my mind. May be I was occupied with my own work or I was just too darn tired to even think bout anythang.
Lucky for me, I'm meetin' aDeQ tomorrow for our usual meet up. And I promise you this babe. I will hug you when I set my eyes on you. I will embrace you with my strength and courage just to make sure you are happy tomorrow. I do not wanna see my bestie to be a sad gal tomorrow. It will be GyLeR's meet up with couple of other invited people, and for sure, I want my aDeQ back. My babe, I know I could never be there for you these couple of days. You understand why I slept early. I thank you for been so understandin' despite the fact that you need someone to be there for you dearly. I turely am sorry for not even textin' you to ask how you doin' on the other side. My apologies gal. But, pls rest assure, my shoulders and strength are all yours tommorrow gal. You will make me happy and I wil make you happy. We both need to work hand in hand to get you out of the depressin' zone. Cause gal, no bestie in her right mind wanna see her own best galfren to be in such a state. I shall see you and hug you with all my strength. And I hope throught my little doin', you'll be just fine. Insyah allah babe. Remember your promise to me bout tommorrow ? Seein' you happy is all I could ever ask for. You're in my prayers babe.
Unfortunately, I've not set a date for my Tracy. Our time clashes for this week. Honey, you used to call me up when you are in a depressin' state. I used to hear you cry your lungs out, literally. I heard you sobbin' at the end of the phone with an upsettin' heart. However, you should know I am always there. I'm sorry for not been there like how I said I would be. I really hope you understand my side of the story. Gal, meet me soon. Let us place a peak on each other's cheeck to make ourseleves or for this case, yourself better. Let us be in each other arms and with hope you would feel better. I may sound lesby, but I don't care. I do not wanna see you in this state. No. And never. Even if we are off different religion and believe in different beliefs, trust me when I say, I treat you just like my da jie. Even if the short months are the only timeline for us, I wanna you to know how much I've treasure those girly talks we used to hold. Now, you with your new love. I am overwhelmin' with joy ! I really am. Remember how my reaction was ? You've seen and sense it yourself that I wanna you to be happy in a true guy's arm. Cause gal, you mean the world to me. I could not care less if I really sound lesby here. Cause da jie, wo che de ai ni. You're a fren and a sister to me Tracy. I shall meet you really soon.
Frens come and go and all these are due to God's doin'. I am in a right state of mind now. Hence, I believe that what HE take away from me is off a good reason. I'm in the midst of losin' couple of frens that I've been livin' with for four years. No, not Din. And it will never be him. I could not see where I went wrong in those frenship that I felt I am losin' all four grips. I guess, I really lost it. However, HE took away couple of 'em and gave back to me the better ones. In the midst of bloggin', I found Eiya.
She's always there. Even if we did not catch up with each other's life via mobile. But we did exchange emails for a period. And we met up durin' National Day. I am still contactin' her till of today. She believe that bestfren are bullshit due to the fact that she was once been betry by her own bestfren. Circumstances change people, don't you think so? But yea, bestfren aint bullshit my dear. You're one strong lady that I begin to admire dearly. You faced lots and lots of relationship problems. I read your blog as though I'm readin' your life stories. I could see how strong a lady you are. You live your life the way you want it to be. Believe me gal, when I say, you are finally someone I could really learn from. You gave me advices on how to talk to aDeQ and you even pass me advices bout aDeQ even when you did not know the root of aDeQ's problem. You are one true kind soul. Gal, I lost a fren and I found a fren in you. I really do hope you would find your own bestfren soon enough and you would know what I mean. And love, I hope we would carry on with this positive way of frenship. You've been there always. You read up on my life stories and asked if I am doin' just fine. Your little doin' really touches my heart gal. I thank you for been soon concern. I could never repay your good deed. You never fail to check up on me even if now you've deleted your blog. Gal, you're in my prayers. And pls, meet me soon. I miss you and your adik !
Allah is great. HE take away some part of your life and HE give the better one. I could never really ask for more. I am enjoyin' all frenship that are puttin' up a positive front. I face couple of problems before, however, I could now say that. I have a bunch of good and close fren that worth all my timin' in the world. With my GyLeRs within' my reach, my ladies on my side, and my guys fren ready to rock the world and not forgettin' Din who has been back on my life once again. Tell me, how could I ever ask for more. Alhamdulilah. I am now a happy lady. May my life and your life people, be a good one in this good o' Holy Month of Ramadhan. Insyah allah. Amin.
... aku gi masjidnyer orang lah okies !
