Saturday, September 15, 2007
I was literally quiverin' when I walked into Darul Ma'wa. Thank God Lc was there to accompany and blew away my nervousness. We sat at the lounge to wait for Akak Dewi before makin' our way to the prayer's hall. I was not in the right state of mind when I finally took my place. I was quiverin' and my palms felt total wet. I just said couple of able prayers. Due to the fact that it's TOM ( Time Of the Month ), there was not much prayers I could recite. Hence, I sat there, listenin' attentively to the prayers that the childern and Ustaz recited. Without my realization again, it came. Silently.
I cried. I was cryin' without sense of control. Lc placed her hands on my laps and asked me to stop cryin'. She pat my back. I kept on coverin' my hair and face with my green scarf. I could see my ladies eyes was on me. I felt myself losin' control with tears I stood up and get out of the prayer's hall. I stood outside couple of seconds before Lc and Nad came out. How concern they were. I was really touched. Lc commented that I was really shiverin' and she could literally see my fingers was tremblin'. I cried and tried to smile in between my tears. I was a manic. Idiot to cry in between those prayers.
I kept my head low throughout the prayers after I made my way back in. Ya allah, how weak I was that night. The sense of miss and love towards Arwah as beyond control. We all misses him. Yes we do. I for one , prayed for him everytime I complete my prayers or some other time when I remembered bout him. The feelin' was too darn strong. I failed to be strong and control my emotions. Haix. Only HE know how badly I wanted to be strong and not cry. Ya allah, kuatkan lah semangat dan peliharalah imanku. Amin.
We teens made our way to Geylang after Tahlil. Tiana, Nad, Lc, Shahrul and me. I was thinkin' bout Arwah and so were they. We hope we would put our mind at ease, hence we made our way to Geylang. We survey for Tiana's Baju Kurung, the ladie's shoes and my bag. We literally walked all over Geylang that night. We shared couple of laughters that night. It was really a sweet memories that created. The bond that was once left due to the fact that each one of us is busy with life is pretty much stronger now. I finally have the chance to have a fun and lovely time with my ladies, and not forgettin' Shahrul. We grabbed late dinner under some random block. We were enjoyin' our talks and dinner when some random Bangla came and asked for some food from us. Shahrul gave him my otah-otah and ordered that Bangla to go away. It was indeed a scary ! It was dark , and suddenly that Bangla came. Tak takut ke ?! Nasib lah ada Shahrul, kalau tak ada ? Mahu aja kita 4 gadis lari. Tiana suggested we go some other random blocks, but I said,we stick to that place as it was kinda open and people will walk past our location in some random mintues.
Oh, did I mention I saw Him. My heart sank to ocean's deep. Heck, whatever.
Today I met Tracy up. I skipped my meet up with Firman and the gang due to the fact that dad want me to be home for breakin' of fast. Hence, I made my way to Tracy's. I was pratically and literally late for an hour. I overslept due to the nice wet weather. I made my way down to Tracy's private apartment, it was ulu yet cosy ! It was really private. Where all neighbour sat behind close down and do not really said Hi. Every window and door was pratically, CLOSED! And the swimmin' pool was souless even the gym. We had the whole gym to ourselves.
We gym-ed for a close of two hours. We did more chattin' then gym actually. The same old story, catchin' up with each other's life, laughed, joked, the little-little gals talk. Easy said, we did what gals do best. Bitch.
After gym we made our way to CauseWay point to get my cravin's for Donuts fulfilled. Even if the quene was long we still stayed on. Tracy returned her books and we made our way to meet up with Feer. Feer held a stall over in Woodland's Bazaar for the Fastin' month. He has been doin' that for couple of years now. Since this year I finally get close and knew him in details, the thought of helpin' and buyin' his drinks came into my mind. He was busy makin' Air Katira. The Makcik was chactio lah okies ! Maha kecoh siak. That makes the whole atmosphere noisy yet fun. Feer was busy keepin' his stall runnin' and we made our way down to collect our Donuts. After which, Tracy made her way for a meet up and I made my way home.
Tracy my dear, I had fun. Next up will be doin' of our Nails, GeyLang and HairDo for my hari Raya. We really should do this often ya know. Those little-little gal's talk. I had my ball of fun with you today. The dance that we attempt to do on the bicycle. The talks that we shared. The jokes that we laughed at. The concerns and doubts we rose. Every single thangs really do make my day. Thank you soo much for a relaxin' Saturday. See you soon my dear !
Lc, Nad and Tiana, Thank you for makin' my Friday a funny one. Those jokes that we ladies created, the kecohness of it all. Makes me smile again after Tahlil. Thank you for literally standin' by myside when I cried my heart out. We shall do a bit of shoppin' in the near future aite ? Thank you my ladies.
Feer, your Air Bandung sedap okies !
... missin' my GyLeRs
