totally disheartenin'
I do not know what I was thinkin'
Problems took a toll
I did not bring it to the exam hall
I did not study before hand
Due to the damned problems
totally disheartenin'
I have been cryin' ever since
Cryin'
Cryin'
Like a damned baby
Just when I thought I wanna make it big
I do not wanna be this way
I do not wanna feel what I feel
I do not wanna be the one paint dark colours on my parents faces
I do not wanna regret my whole life away
I do not wanna be facin' down all my life

I wanna be someone
I wanna feel the way I feel last year
I wanna paint big smile on my parents faces
I wanna live my life with no regrets
I wanna lift up my face all my life
I wanna Pursuit Happyness

What does it takes to survive ?
What does it takes to be all problem-free?
What does it takes to be stress-free?
What does it takes to be all happy ?
What does it takes to cryin' tears of joy ?
What does it takes to set my life the way I want it to be ?
What does it takes to be the child mummy and daddy proud of ?

Is it soo hard ?
Is it soo difficult ?
Is it soo tedious ?
Is it soo complicated ?
Is it soo complex ?
Is it soo unmanagable ?

All I ever wanted was to make mummy and daddy proud ,
All I ever wanted was to make it big,
All I ever wanted was just plain happyness,
All I ever wanted was to feel rich and be rich - money and knowledgewise,

I guess, it takes sooooo much to be DE one,
I am at the edge of givin' up all hopes,
Hopes that was so pure,
Hopes that was so bright,

I am sick and tired of cryin' ,
I am sick and tired of tryin' and tryin',
I am sick and tired of silent expectations,
I am sick and tired of works,
I am sick and tired of been the elite amoung the best,
I am sick and tired of holdin' on to that title,
I am just tooo sick and tired of ... everythang

it has been a totally turn off
total hell
total one heck of a damned journey this year
end it
fast
pls