Tuesday, August 21, 2007
My oh my ! Did ya'll see what I see on my tag board ? Someone has already attracted to my dear dear Nad huh ? Yes Aniff, or whoever you are, she is indeed a CUN lady. She is indeed a good catch. However, she has been catch by a fella. So much so of me not wantin' to say this but , lu lambat lah bradeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrr * with the rocker voice wannabe *. OH ! Wait, you may not be a brader, you may be a sista ! Oh oh! Identity lah pls. Nevertheless, such pleasure to see you around my humble yet loud blog. Welcome ! Hahahakz. I have soo many dates to catch and so little time. I have to cramp in my study commitments and my dates commitments with my ladies. My oh my ! What a tiring week. I have to start muggin' for end of year. Sad to say, I have to do my very best for this around of exams before I really been kill by both mummy and Mrs Betty Chow. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! Such crucial yet enjoyable world.
As I pray with my sincere heart to HIM to give me endless peace and love, as I pray to HIM with my open heart to give me courage and strength to move on in this life, as I pray to HIM to give me the reason on the backsteps that I faced these year, I feel myself relax and in my ease. I feel myself enjoyin' every moment with a slight satisfyin' smile. However, I could not lie any more nor could I tolerant the sense of worry in me.
I am dead scared for what my future would hold. I am just too afraid to wake up in the morning and see my life gone away just like that. It is not that I have no faith in HIM. May be due to the fact that I have not pray enough to HIM, may be due to the fact that the optismism in me has drain out as the month passes me by. I have let mummy down again. She knew that I do badly for prelims. I have yet to let ayah know. I dare not see the reaction on his face.
Yea, some people would ask me to relax and said it was just a prelim. But heck, prelim meant a big deal to me. I have done way way below my standards. I have done way below my usual grade. I drop two grade lower for every subject. BELIEVE THAT. That's how dramatic my record was. This has got to be my worse result EVER.
I have lay out a time plan for myself. I have lay out study plan. I am gonna be a discipline human being who would follow strictly to her plan. Nothing would get into my way. I wanna make a grand endin', and that will be just it. A grand ending'.
I have to buck up. I have to face the music. I have to suffer to gain victory. I have to let go of my wants to gain the needs in life. I have to be a warrior instead of a worrier. I have to be what everyone wants me to be. The elite amoung the best. I'll be just that.
Got to believe,
Got to have faith,
Got to pray to HIM,
Got to work smartly,
Got to work hard,
Got to do whatever it takes to end with a grand endin',
I just have to do it. I just have to balance my private life with my study side. I should not only lay back on my private life and ponder bout the sadness and setback that I faced all this while. I just have to let it go. By gones will always be by gones.
Sky is the limit.
The harder you fall.
The higher you fly.
I am a believer.
Yes ladies, give me time to sort out my dates with ya'll. I have manymany humans to date lah okies ? I have only my Fridays and Weekends to spare hor. You ladies are also busy with school. We must and we shall meet up real soon. Worse come to worse basis, we all meet on the 8th of September. I want every bit of you ladies to come down pls. Thank you. From Ain, Nad, Bie, Patner, Akak Dewi, Eiya, Nana, Eedah, Baybeee, Bebeh, ya'll have GOT to come down. I just misses you ladies so badly.
Friday : Date with my heros and babes
Saturday : Movie date with Bie and Nad , perhaps ? Confirm again pls.
... i just wanna be me
