Thursday, August 2, 2007
I do not know what's wrong with my head today, that I did not even kiss nor talk to mum in the mornin'. May be due to the fact that she accused me of usin' HER money to buy my wants and not the neeeeeeeeds. You see, time to time I do ask her for money. Be it schools stuff or my wants stuff. And this time round, I dearly needed money for my Polo Tee for the class. Culutral Expression is in a weeks time, and since I am not dancin' this year, I have to fork out money for my class Polo Tee. And I sweetly asked mum due to the fact that I run out of money after shoppin' for sum needs of my own. And she started babblin' bout how I ask her for HER money and spent it on other stuffs and not on the stuffs that I supposed to pay for. How irritatin'. I swore I used her money to pay for my CLASS Polo Tee and she go all around the world and said I am gonna use that money for my own needs and not for my CLASS. Heck. I spent 973047340783493394832 mintues tellin' /swearin' ( the good swearin' ) to her that I dearly need that money to pay up. I could jolly ask daddy but since dad will never be at home before 7 in the mornin', I had to turn to mum. And heck, that's what I get, naggin', babblin' and scoldin'. Sayin' all I could ever do is to grab her money and don't give a damned bout any other important stuffs. Jeez, for once I thought she had her menses. En route to school this mornin', she said with her tension voice that she wanna withdraw money for me, and I go ..
Me: Tak paya lah, besok akak mintak ayah lagi bagus. ( Walk off without turnin' back )
Which means , '' Nevermind lah, I rather ask from dad''
See lah, mornin' blues man. Great, this is exactly how I start my mornin'. Ish. I did not even turn back nor kiss her on the cheek. Heck, I felt guilty. But, the anger and frustration took control. I took the whole ten mins to answer her call even though Angel kept on screamin' for my name. I was pratically angry at her again, and I just put down the fone without sayin' ''Bye''. Seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee lah. I know I should not have done that. But heck, marah dok marah. I could never control my temper. It really sucks ball you know. Well, it is not exactly could never control, I could control it, but I guess, with mum's wrong prespective of me and the way she voiced out her frustration early in the mornin', tick the hell of me. And boy, when sumthang bad happened in the mornin', I would go all frown and black faced the whole day.
As told, I was all quiet and did my revision in the mornin'. People kept on askin' for my notes and my reference boook, I almost tick off. Thank god Ms Chia gave me that better-relax-or-else look. I forced myside to smile before the mood and temper get outta hand. What a bad Thursday. Sigh.
Hopefully, ya'll Thursday turn out great, heck, my mood goes down the damned red slide lah se.
... you made my day worse pal
