Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Ralvin cut his hair ! Teeheheheh. Sorry peeps, but I am feelin' super hyper now. May be due to the fact that I am all stressed out and Ralvin cut his hair. Akinso did the most of the cuttin', while Ian and I did sum touch up. Omg, once I grab hold of his new look, I will pass it up. Teheheh.Prelims is next week people. Thank god, I am pullin' my sock instantly. I have been tryin' to stay awake in all lesson and scribble some important notes. I stayed up late last night to catch up with maths. It really do some mercy on me though. It has been awhile since I last stayed up late with coffee by my side. Oh well, I foresee that to come in the near future aye ?
Larlin and I are not talkin'. I exploded on the fone. Two years of my life has been wasted talkin' to her. Gave her the best support she needs to go through those rough paces of life. Her relationship was the major factor. She has been beaten up and mentally abuse by her love. I force her to leave him. Break up the worthless relationship. The guy has been callin' her anak sundal, and anak haram all this while. I was taken aback. I was frustrated. I sure was. And the pesky thang is, she could still stick with this guy for two damned years.
I could not take all her pain nor her sadness no longer. I gave her piece of my mind last sunday , and I hang up on her. Label me any worthless names if you people want it, but I, personally, had enough of this bullshit.
Could you actually see and hear your bestie cryin' four in the mornin' for the last two years ?
Could you actually see your bestie's hands all blue black and swollen in the mornin' ?
Could you actually see and witness her tears that made her eyes blood shot red for the last two years ?
Could you actually witness your bestie's studies drop because of that guy that beat her and called her names , sinned names ?
Could you actually believed that your besties wants a second chance in this relationship?
Could you actually see her all weak and thin due to all that bastard's doin' ?
COULD YOU ?
NO, I can't. I had enough. Enough is enough larlin. Really, I cried and I hugged my mum when I told her bout larlin's condition. Mum said I had done way beyond off all help. It is all up to larlin to pick her path. I just do not get it you know. How could someone stick to a guy who called you anak haram and pompuan sundal and even said , '' aku tak pernah dapat pompuan sesundal mcm kau '', and beat you up in front of all his frens ? How thick is her skull ? How thin is her brain ? It frust the shit outta me.
She's my besties. The one that I turned too when I'm happy or sad. The one whom I called up in the middle of the night for endless and fresh jokes. The one whom I kissed on the cheeks. The one whom I hugged whenever I'm happy or sad. Every four years of my life has been around her and my kakis. They have been true and loyal frens. Especially larlin. I just do not wanna see her go down the drain due to that inhumane bastard. I love her. I love my larlin', I love my best best and elite fren. However, everyone has their limit, so do I. I am at my wits end on how to get thru her.
I have made her pray to Allah, I have asked her along to religious classes, I have taught her how to say prayers, I have advice her, I have been there for her, I gave her words of encouragment when she needs it, I was there for her the whole time. Could she not see the love and care that I have for her ? How true I was in the frenship that I do not wanna see her go down the damned drain cause of this worthless guy ?
Ya Allah ya tuhanku, kau terangkan lah hati kawan ku, kau bukakkan lah mindanya. Berikan lah dia hidayahmu, tunjukkanlah kuasamu ya allah. Hentikanlah seksaannyer Ya Allah. Sesungguhnyer, aku memohon seikhlas hatikuYa Allah. Kau lah maha pengampun lagi maha penyayang. Amin.
honeys of mine, this lesson has taught me, guys are not worth our tears,
honeys of mine, do not be blinded by love,
readers of mine, always, always beware of guys who hands get onto your face,
to all of mine, love truely, love sincerely, and may Allah shower you and your patner the true and endless love. Love that does not hurt nor bring physical and mental pain
... am alert bout the lads and dudes ard me, thanks Allah.
p.s Mummy asked me out for a date this FRIDAY. YAY!! FINALLY! It's been long since I last when out with mummy. Mum ! It's just us, right ? ';)
