As told, I spent my two days in Orchard and Bugis. Two days people. Yesterday I headed down to Orchard after I get my stuff's in Bugis.

Tapz, Cinderella, Eedah, Addict and Apek was down over in Orchard. I did not talk much as I was dead tired from all the shoppin' I had. I got myself Mocha Frap. Oh boooooooooooooooooy. It really did satisfy my cravin's, but still, I do crave for Starbucks.

I hustle in Mango to survey for sum dress. Nothin' got my eyes yet. Sunday would be spend with trainin' and a little bit of shoppin' hor cousin ? Heh. Yea, meetin' my dearest cousin. I really do miss her, alot. Ever since she started workin' and havin' the new B in her life, she forget about me. Hehe. Not totally forget though,she's busy with what life got to offer, huh ? You have a date with me this Sunday cousin !

Couple of pictures that we snapped...

Cinderella and Me

TapZ and Me.

My lovely babes.

Finally, after months of not takin' the picture with my baby sis. Finally, yea, finally, we have one.

Adik ! Akak Love you lah. =DD

Everyone around me are fallin' down. Deep down. I am deeply downhearted. Tracy, Ian, Larlin, Herman, Ralvin, Nicki, aDeQ, Nazri. Everyone I adore and love are sufferin' from heartache. I am no different. Yea, I may be havin' the time of my life everyday. Yea, I may be smilin' and laughin' to my heart content.

I have been prayin' to the Lord Above. Prayin' to give my frens, specially Larlin, peace and happiness. I do too, pray for myself. God has shown me. Finally, the light, and the path I should be takin'. Feer has been drillin' me, has been talkin' sum sense into me.

I want to end it all. I have been sayin' it again and over again. Thinkin' that somehow or rather, I would be convince to know that been around you is safe enough. However, somehow or rather, I felt disturbed. Disturbed to the extend that I am givin' it all up.

As much as I want to be there, as much as I wanna understand, as much as I wanna care, I found it soo soo wrong. I wanna discreet to someone's views. I wanna beg to differ, but I did not. Simply put, it all come down to one. I should make a move. I should have movED days ago.

Like you mention, I am not the only one. Like you mention, you were stress. How about me ? I am a student who will be facin' her major exams. Major exam that would shape her future. Just go, leave, get out. Go to other gals that you have in your Inbox that I saw. Go to other gals that you knew. Go to other gals that happened to be not the only one. Go, just.. Go.

As much as I wanna everythang to be TOTALLY different, it did not. And I had enough. How could I understand you, when you go around givin' me that frustrated face and get mad at me due to your bad mood ? How could I understand you,when you go around not talkin' and not wantin' to talk thangs out ? As much as I want to be there, I tried my best. You know I did. You jolly well know I did. I tried my ass out.

I tolerated your anger, your bad mood, your words. I have told you, jangan ikutkan rentak, relax, chill. I have told you to talk thangs out, face the music of the problem, but you refused. Do whatever you wanna do. I am tired and sick. I am givin' it all up, includin' you.

... we are on the same boat tracy.