Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Met up with my dear Eedah yesterday. We catch up with each other pretty well, and boy, did we go crazy over Topshop or what ? Heh. We did shopped and get our pretty pretty tops. We did fickle minded couple of times, went over to couple of shops. Pull and Bear was over the TOP! We would go over the next time round. Finally, Eedah got her tube top while I got this top which Eedah called it the Barbie Doll Top. Hahakz. I just need to get new pair of Jeans, and I all set to paint the town red. Heh. We grabbed our early dinner over in Banquet. We talked over dinner. We catch up with each other lives, we talked as though we have not met for a looooooooooong time. Padahal , bobal hari-hari pat Msn. Heh. We should do this often babe. And I love ye bestie!
Couple of hours of havin' fun together, he came along. Despite of him, been not in the best of health, he came down all the way to Vivo. It was an ok day. I did enjoy my time with both of my best pal. They never fail to make my night a wonder. Never fail to make me laugh nor make me go crazy. It is and will be fun havin' around 'em.
In the train, was another different story. We listened to the melody that he created usin' some software. Both he and me, nod our head, and tap our feet to the beat. And out of the blue, we danced in the train packed with humans. Not the big steps dance, just shake sum booty. Heh. We did not spent time with each other like how we used to, and he made the move to send me all the way to my void deck. He refused to go , and I scary him with sum eeric voices, and what's not. Oh boy, it turned out unexpected. And did I mention that he went bad mood out of the blue ? I was pretty bored and dead. He gave me that Whatever-Face. I kept quiet all the way. However, I love Last Night.
Today, however, turned out way unexpected. I headed down to Larlin aka Shakinah's. I catch up with Akinso and Ian. The four of us wanted so much to catch up with each other, that we decided to spent sum quality time. En route, I met him up. He receieved an urgent call over in his work place that he had to urgently make his way down. I was pretty down when I got to know that he would be back home either tonight or tomorrow. I barely let go of his hands I tell ye. Oh boy. After seein' him off, I made my way to Larlin's. I had a time. We coooked our lunch.
Larlin get sum cookin' tips from mum via phone. And boy, did they talked kinda long or what. Akinso was practically sayin' we are havin' our dinner instead of lunch. Heh. All of us was hungry over the aroma that rose from the main dish. We did not bother waitin' for the Potato to cooked, we just ate to our stomach content. We catch Hindustan. And mind ye, Ian kept on forwadin' the disc that I felt it was not 3 solid hours of Hindustan. It was a pretty sweet and sad movie. Larlin' and I could not stop from ''OOOOOOOOOOOOo'' and "Awwwwwww'' -inG over the hot and handsome hero. Basically, larLin' and I went gaga whenever the hero stare straight to the camera and smile. OHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh BOY. Droolin' aye ?
I don't know what happened, he got to go off that evening itself. And boy, was I grinin' from ear to ear or what. He got to go to Bukit Panjang while I stubbornly said I wanna go home. In the bus home, he was pretty bad mood; again. Mind ye, it has been two days straight that I got to see that Whatever-I-don't-care face. I cajole him, and tried to talk thangs out, and when we stepped into my bus, it get worse. I tried cajole him again, yet, he said it was nothin'. And still that face. I was pretty frustrated. And I ignore him completely. I do not even look towards his side. I stand distance away.
It grew even worse when I asked him whatever happen, and he ignored me. I ordered him home, and he just look at me blankly. I pushed him hard, yet he stood rooted to the ground, finally, it's pay back time. I gave him that attitude face,and he just leave... like that. He did not even bother to asked me to cool down, or he did not even bother to console me, the least he could do is just say what was in his mind. But, he just .. leave.
My tears was at the tip. I spun around, and walked off. Did not even bother to look back. I believe I did the right thang. However, I felt guilty, to push him away that way. I lay flat on my bed and one by one, tears roll down. I felt so usless, so bastard, so unwanted.
Yea, the ego me is back, again. OH boy. I just do not know what to do. I felt so lost. So so lost. He just leave without the proper goodbye. I still do remember the look on his face. May be what I did was wrong. Yea. It was wrong INDEED. But I want he to know too, that I am here, always, to listen to his heart pourin', and I want to know what was botherin' him. I do not want anyone or him for that matter to give me those faces. I felt wrong, I felt uneasy. May be knowin' him, and gettin' to know him more, was wrong. May be it was just not meant to be. May be been ard me bore him. What the heck. I don't know....
... i am hangin' my head low,
