Before anythang, sorry if it bore ye people with what I am gonna say. But heck, tis is my blog, i have it on my way.

tis is way random...

i am soo scared. scared for the worse. i have no freakin' mood for anythang. how could i be soo intact with tis sad and depressin' feelings. he sure does marks a huge footprint in my life. he make me laughed, yet now, he make me cried, and pray hard in front of the blinded window. I may be laughin' just now, i may havin' a relax time, but no. I am not. None of us was.

when i saw him, layin' helplessly, layin' in huge pain, the only thang that i want to do was, stand beside his bead, held his hands, and pray along with him, i wuld send a word of encouragment. Ya Allah. It was beyond comprehend, beyond.. words.

how much he suffered, really set me quiet and pray hard to Allah. Everyone was dead quiet in front of the window. I felt him. I felt that he wants to break out and stop the sufferin', but.... The neares I could go is kissin' the window glass, and see my cloud of carbon dioxide been smudged on the window.

i have no mood for everythang/anythang. tis is worse then breakin' up. he is a fren that curved a rainbow over my life. he is a fren and a brader to all. we love him, soo soo much. i adore him as a fren, and i respect him as a brother.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, kau lah yang memberi dugaan ini, dia sudah menerimanya, pulikan lah sahabat ku ya allah. Berikan lah dia semangat untuk melalui dugaanMu yang dasyat. Ya Allah Ya Tuhan kami, kau lah maha pengampun dan penyayang. Kepada kamu aku mohon, dan aku mohon dengan seikhlas hatiku, panjangkan lah dan pulikan lah sahabat ku Shahrunizam. Amin.

.. ye have to listen to our prayers, and come around, ye have to nizam, we misses ye

For the record, he can now, nod his head in respond, he is in subconsious however, just that he is yet to open up his eyes.