Monday, May 14, 2007
Yesterday night, I was doin' what I always love doin'. Bloggin'. When galfren called to catch up with each other's lifes. Even though we pratically meet each other everyday in school. Tsk. Gals could not just get enough. Heh.While in the midst of talkin', our conversation got to it's peak. Thus, I spun around in my chair to give my fullest attention to the excitin' conversation. However, when I spun around again to face my computer, my fingers start doin' it's magic when, BOOM ! BANG ! BUSH ! My post gone to nowhere. It literally gone ! I was frustrated enough, and decided to give my attention to my galfren. Since then, I was damned lazy to update whatever I typed out.
And again, that damned thang happen. When I already wrote near to a 50% of what I wanted to blog, it's GONE ! What the ........... Fine.
As I was typin', bloggin', postin',
My conversation with galfren could not get any less fun. We were gigglin' , laughin' hysterically. We talked bout almost everythang, school, our faithful Elvin and Allon, steorotypin' and upcomin' major examinations. However, we talked more bout Elvin and Allon. Heh. We were havin' a huge fun talkin' and hoppin' and wishin' that there will be a romantic updates soon enough for both of us to indulge. We are just been the typical girls. Hell, we are aren't we gal ?
Today school, I hoped to be much more excitin' and entertain'. However, a girl got to make my mornin' a frustrated one. I was pretty self-kept today. Yea, I am laughin' to larlin's and Akinso attempt to fuck larlin with their skirts on. But I was frustrated altogether. Ye know, when ye want to let it out, but yet ye don want to create any chaotic or any damned fights that ye know will occur. Hell.
She got to act so frenly. She got to laugh hysterically with me durin' geography lesson. She got to treat me with smiles couple of times. She got to joke about with me sum times or another. However, she got to say fucked up thangs behind my back. And THANK GOD, really, THANK GOD, pratically to Ian, ye better Thank any god that ye belief, that she is not my close or buddy, or else, I would settle the damned cards with her then and there. Man jing is the girl. I am not gonna be pretendious. I am not gonna be sumone who talked and let out everything here without lettin' the world know who that person will be. I am not gonna be a coward. Trust me, let everything out in the blog is gonna be a prefectOooo revenge. Why ? So that the world knows her,just like how she let my frens been know what she got to say bout her damned views on me.
Yea, so what I asked tons of question ? So what ? Hey, girl, I am not gonna spilt vulgarities at ye like I would usually do. I am not gonna lower myself to the extend that I makin' a fool of myself by shootin' vulgarities to ye. Hey girl, I am not gonna hunt ye down like I used to do. Hey girl, thank god that ye are a '' FREN '' that I known for only 5 months. Hey girl, thank god that I do not really treasure ye. I would not be so frustrated to ye. But why I am now ? Why ? I tell ye why.
What's up with ye tellin' my close buddy bout ye can't stand me ? Hell. Do ye have the slightest thought that they are actually my close buddy ye talkin' too ? Do ye have the slightest thought that they are actually sayin' '' Bastard'' under their breath when ye said all those dirty stuffs? Come on, girl. Wake up will ya ? Even though they do not tell me, I know it myself. Can ye be much more fake ? Because, yeer eyes, yeer talkes, yeer ways of lookin' around, give it all away. I caught it the moment ye talked to Akinso. Take me as a stupid dumb gal do ye ? Do ye know that, every words that ye spoke to Akinso, I can catch it ? Do ye know that I can even understand chinese ? Shi, wo ke yi chiang hua yi. Shi, wo ting dong hua yu. Wake up girl, ye are not livin' in the world of stupidity or dumbness.
Just want ye to know that, even the stupidiest lookin' person on earth, they could pick up bits and piece along the way of life and learn how to value FRENS on their own. And if ye think ye wanna bug and brag and spits and shout and shot vulgarities at me, do it in my damned face Man jing. I will not eat ye up, don't worry. The least I could do is just smile and wish ye luck in the future. Like I said, in my entries, I am changin' and I will not bring myself lower then the ground, to spits or shout or shot vulgarities at anyone. I wanna be a better person and a better fren. And I believe, as a true believer of Islam, and a devotee to my God, this is just a minor, tiny weey hard rock that I have to go through without backstabbin' anyone, without be a hypocrite to anyone, or not splitin' vulgarities to anyone. Anyone ? My dearest buddy and ture FRENS for that matter.
Just for the record, if ever any of my dearest buddy and true frens backstab me, I would react differently. But I will try to restraint myself from havin' any vulgarities in my mouth. However, that would not be neccessary, as I know my dearest buddy and true frens will not do such a thang. Unless of course, Ralvin, Ian and Akinso planned to turn their backs on me and go up against me. But then again, I would not be a such worrier, as I know, Shakinah aka Larlin will always be there for me. Not only her though, there's such a thang, what we teenagers called, '' Outside frens ''.
And I believe I have found my true '' outside frens ''. How I know ? Cause I know 'em longer then 5 damned MONTHS. And oh, if ye ever think that lettin' my frustrations out in my blog is cowardice act, and ye wanna bring the matter face to face, be my guest. It is ye who create the talkin'-behind-my-back thang, and I am waitin' for ye to come up, and admit it, right in my face. Even if I knew everything bout it. But on the other hand, I could not even be bother, cause I know, and again, reconfirm, that ye are not in my list of top 100 good frens.
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