Monday, May 21, 2007
I must say, my hair is gettin' longer and much more manageable. I look much more girly now then with my not-that-short-hair-but-emo-guylish-like-hair. Yea. I love it much. I would not cut it any more. I swear. I really hope I would keep my swear and have my long hair back. Teehee.It was all fun excludin' the absence of my larlin today. Tsk. After 4 straight days of not seein' her, I miss her. Larlin ! Give me a call or sumthang, or or better still, come to sch tmL. There's tons of updates I would want to pour to ye. Teeeheee.
Design is dead on me. It was a such a killer. It was all bout electornics. Heck, I hate hate electornics. I do not even why I end up doin' this subject. May be I was stupid ages ago. Oh well, no point regertin' now. Hell. I may be stupid, blur, dumb in Design-- in electronics especially, I am not as dumb as my two gong-gong head dudes. Here it goes..
Ian: Ehk, why can not pluck in ?
Ralvin: Mine too? How siaa ?
Me: Mine can leh, come I see * goes over-- pretendin' to be a terror rite here. Heh*
Me: Oi ! Pluck it in the LED light pins lah, this is the Input pin bodoh.
Ralvin looks at Ian and he burst out laughin'. STUPID man. BLUR man. I was the terror after all. Teeheee. And they kept on laughin' and smackin' their head, and recall the incident again, and sayin' it again how dump they could be. HAhhakz. It's kinda cute to see this dudes makin' a fool outta themselves. Mahahakz.
Our assembly talk is altogether friutful. Mr Raja Singh, who is now depend his life on a wheelchair, was an athlete, a commandor, and a man of many-many dreams. In 1983, he met with an accident that make him go paralysed and as a result, he had to depend on wheelchair. In a week's time, he was to face his Trilon Marathon, which is consits of Swimmin', Runnin', and Bikin'. All he could think of, was his competition, never, ever did he though bout his accident. He knew he would be well and recovered within the few days before the big day comes. However, a good dream became a bitterful and hurtful reality. His competition was far beyond his reach, what more, far from gettin' the position he ever wanted; champion
He felt that he had let himself down. He was frustrated, dissappointed, devastated. He could not even accept that he is and will be paralysed for the rest of his life. Months after of surfferin', he woke up, and he do what he has to do. He took up Wheelchair competiton, and he obtain first place. He open up a company that now earn million of dollar per annual. He had show us all that even a paralysed patient, could do what it takes to be the man of all man. He is the elite. He is the inspiration for all wheelchaired person. With all due respect, I take my hat off him. He do deserve the good compliments. He really show us; me in particular, that no matter how life treats ye, how bad ye have been, how down life has prove, we have, and ought to get up and face the challenges in life, as life will not stop comin' and movin'.
I totally agreed. I totally by his side. Livin' everyday with a new aim and goal, is all I have ever need to move on. I have make a list of achievements that I would want to achieve in the future. And that kept me goin', eventhough, sometime, I know, I bound to give up and just give in to the setbacks that comes. However, I have to do what it takes to have a better position in a office someday. I would want my parents to live their old lifes in a peaceful way. I do not wanna trouble 'em with money issues here and there. The responsibility of an elder sister is becomin' more and more surreal and realistic.
It scars me sometime, what If I fail ?
What if somethang drastic happen in the future that makes me lose control ?
What if I sidetrack and lose focus ?
What if my goal are goals yet to be kick in the damned net ?
It really scars me.
I talked to mum all bout it. She is the one I turned too when I have troubled mind. And her answers was simple, yet, impactfuL.
'' Pray to Allah, everytime and always. Do not pray to HIM only when ye are in sadness or downpour hits ye. Pray for HIM during good times and bad times. And HE shall provide ye with good heart, strength, patience, and endless love, and thus, ye shall not be afraid to face setbacks in the future, nor will ye be afraid of yeer future. Cause HE is the ONE that makes it all happen. Believe in HIM, and HE will show HIS grace.''
... would any of ye disgaree with my mum ? ;)
