Thursday, May 10, 2007
Changed my blog skins within' couple of hours, I must say. Due to the fussy and chossy imbues in me. Oh well, I love it. Kinda simple, and just.. me. =DDIt's nite. It's by the road side. Simple and me. =DD. Did abit , or should I say, alot of adjustment under De one, simpliy because, people intend to think that they know me tooooooo well, that they pass judgement on me. Oh well, people's views, I don't give a damned, unless of course, they put it in a nice, and polite way, I would consider on what they have to say. Heh.
Pretty confusin' ? Hope not. I really wanna stop people from givin' me the wrong judgement. It's not that I care, nor wanna take care of my damned reputation where ever I go. But when it comes down to spreadin' of gossips, rumors which are highly and severly untrue, I would dearly hope it would stop. I must say yeer judgement is jaundice.
I have been facin' certain families problem lately. Not with my family, in particular, it's more of a BIG family problem. My dad's side to be exact. A oh-so-well-used-to-respect uncle of my is tryin' to break my family up. Yea, fuck him. I know. Give him a tight slap across his damned face and spits on his ass, and kick his dick to the extend that he can't have childern. I know. If only cousins and I could do it, we would, trust me.
My beloved aunty, my dad's beloved elderest sister, is sufferin' from lost of memory. A horrible one. She forgets how to dial the phone despite of her callin' my dad or mum every weekend to catch up on our lifes. She forgets how to cook despite of her givin' the outermost delicious dishes to our big family. She forgets how to wear her own underwear despite of coverin' up her assets. She forgets how to bathe despite of her been a pristine woman. She forgets how to locked the door despite of her has to keep the house safe. She forgets entirely everythings. Includin' prayin'. Drastic. I know. Sad case. I am feelin' it.
She is just like a newborn baby that needs to be told what to do, and how to do it. However, my damned uncle is tryin' to make the matter worse. He kepts on sayin' and buggin' that my other aunty are not givin' their elderest sister a dearly visit despite of her gettin' sick each and every day. He kept on buggin' and sayin' that we; yes, includin' my dad that dearly love his sister, does not give a fuck damned on his wife-- in which happen to be my dad and my aunties elder sisters.
HOW THE HELL ARE WE GOIN' TO VISIT WHEN EVERYIME WE WENT OVER, THE ONLY THING YE KNOW HOW TO DO IS, SPIT YEER FUCKIN' ANGRY WORDS AT US ? How the fuck are we goin' to go there when ye always show yeer fucked up attitude to us all ? How the hell are we goin' to go over when ye egoistically accuse and shot those damned words of yeers ?
How the hell are we goin' to go over when ye WILL ALWAYS throw yeer tantrums whenever we have the sincere heart to meet our beloved aunty/sister ?
I shall not spit vulgarities like how ye did to my dad. Like how ye violently shot those words at my aunties. Ye are my uncle-in-law between. I just do not give a damned bout ye. Ye used to be womanizer guy, ye used to be one of the oldies gang that goes around beat innonce life up. Now, 26 years later, 26 years of knowin' my family, ye have not even have one damned FULL-TIME job. The job that ye ever have is, part-time. And ye wanna bugged bout how well ye take care of my aunty for only A MONTH, when she has to stay on with yeer rotten attitude for 26 years ? What does A DAMNED MONTH compare to 26 YEARS ?
It's ye who worsen her. It's ye who sicked her. It's ye who wants to seperate us all. If ye jolly well wanna mirgate to Malaysia with my aunty, ye jolly well think bout it again. Like my dad said... '' Kalau abang nak bawa akak mail lari sampai ke Paris pun , akan mail keja abang, sebab mail sayang kan akak mail. Air dicincang tak akan putus abang. Sampai ke lobang cacing akan mail cari abang. "
When my dad said it, he mean it. My dad left ye with those hurtful yet impactful words, with hope that ye would agree to his suggestion that ye come down and settle all scores with our families. Ye refuse. Sayin' ye do not wanna let yeer ego and dignity down. Heck. Who the hell do ye tink ye are ? So what if ye know my family for over 26 years ? So what ? It does not give ye the key to be so stutted and ostentetious bout it all. 26 years does not mean a ting to a lifetime that does siblings knew each other.
I hate ye. All of us do. My dad is just waitin' for the ball to star rollin'. I disrespect ye. All of us do. My dad is just waitin' for the perfect moment to spit vulgarities on yeer fucked face. And when my dad do that, I will be beside him, kickin' yeer face down the drain. All of us will do just that, will we cousin ?
... dear readers, never be a womanizer or a gang member, cause it takes a life time/forever to change
p.s: sorry for the rotten vocabularies, anger take control when at it's peak
