Saturday, March 3, 2007
I have been cravin' for chesse cake like forever. Damn.It's not that bad. Just that someone said that she is cravin' for ice cream, it brings out my cravin' too. Damn. Hope Ralvin or larlin or fb know how to bake. Hell yes my dude aka Ralvin know how to bake hor. See! Guys are not that bad. He baked for his gal on valentine's day. Awww. =DD How I wish my Mr. rite would do that. Muhahahah. * dream on girl *Chattin' with cousin is funn, fun and more FUN! Really. Heh. I oh-so love chattin' with her. Really. =DD. She will always make my nite/day. She is way I cry on, I laugh with, vent anger on. Really. She has been with me all this while. Love ye cousin.
People come and go in our lives. No one stays, except, families and cousin. Trust no one. That is my biggest mistake. Have been in and out of relationship, yet, I'm easily cheated with feelings. A laydee would always want to love and be loved. I am no difference.
Finally, my recent break up, it really thought me alot. Alot. Trust no one. They may look innocent, decent, wild, crazy, loud, funny, and what's not. But never,ever trust no one. As when we make promises, they would never fulfill it. And I doubt I could find human who could actually keep their promises.
After my break up, I learned alot of tings that I SHOULD have known throughout our relationship, but, again, I was blinded with his promises and assurance. Again. Again. And again. When I arrived the real truth, there were no tears, I have cried enough. Really. I do. It's all dried up. Thanks Mr X.
You have taught me, communication, importance of promise, trust and most importantly, open up. I must not have kept my questionable love deep down. I should not have. I should have told ye, how much ye meant to me. How much I adore ye, how much I needed ye during the desparte times, how I sense yeer presence, how i oftenly smelled yeer perfume, how much I miss yeer touch.
Sigh. This is not what I planned to blog. But then, I don noe how stuffs get out. Nvm. That was in the past.
Now, I'm confident to say, I have move on. It's time. It may hurt like hell, but would ye even understand ? Really. I have =DD. I'm all freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and full of life. And I am ready to shake the world on my own.
Finally, I have move on, however, yeer presence, will always be beside me. As a freen =DD
LATER. be all alone in tis werld is the only aim i wan after wat ye did boy
